The wierd chronicles

ThanksGiving Day

2005-11-24T03:01:00.000-08:00

Anoher wierd holiday. The last few days has been a bler of eating sleeping ong amounts of time and getting pist off at my dumbass parents who love to spoil my fucking sister and not me. It's gotten better over the years but its still happens durings birthdays, not that I'm greedy or anything like that I just want things to be equal.

People are wierd in there idolization of hollywood stars, it does'nt quiet make sense to me, actors are just people who found an opportunitie and took it nothing more, nothing less. Also people who get obssesed should actualy go and try to meet the person there obssesed with in a none-obssesive way, blah my I just lost my thought track, more later.

Moving is a bitch!!!

2005-11-21T05:15:00.000-08:00

I just finished moving yesterday, I had a hundred pound tv stand that was about the size of a refrigerator and I had to load it on top of a station wagon, almost dropped it once our twice.

I froze up again I was at a friends party and I got barly think of anything to say to this girl there that I like. I think next time will be better though because I figured out that I was just being to damn uptight and serious. it really does'nt matter thouugh because I found out that she's going out with someone, so another lesson learned I'd say.

Enough of this mushy crap know, More later.

coincedence, only I shall know.

2005-11-17T18:27:00.000-08:00

I just finished my lab right-up for my chemistry class, man was that boring. Some interesting(wierd) and some things have been happening to some of my friends school and I don't know whether to think of it stricktly as a coincedence or a sign of something bad to come. First a friend of a friend gets burned nearly to death and falls into a comma for a week then, friends grandma dies, and next well I don't really care to find that out yet.

I get to go see harry potter 4 ( awesome), then I have dragonboat practice the next morning, then I get to go to a friends birthday on saturday,and last but not least I get to move on sunday( fucken awesome). Awesome weekend ahead then only half a day of school the next day and the rest of the week off( holiluah).

This brings up an interesting topic what people do to make other like them. I think people should'nt have to be fake just to impress others so that they will hang out with them, they should just be themselves and other people should accept them for who they are and push them to be all they can be. This would make high school ,much easier. Socialy anyways . I may be wrong about this but this is how I see it.

Social anxiety is also a serious subject that I would like to discuss because I was afflicted with it for about 3 years. It is something not to be taken lightly at all and it is extremely serous. It cause's people to avoid social situations, which in turn can leed to a loss of possible connections and a loss of possible friends. I experienced one of these and regret it know, but the past is the past and you can't change it.

The bush administration contiues to bash it's critics for telling what they call lies or misconceptions, when in actuality they are the truth. Those stupid fuckbags serously need to be taught a lesson in how to not be an idiot and how to run a damn contry.

I think I will convert from catholism to pagansim, all religions seem to be somewhat hypocritical but the form of paganism I am looking at ( wicca) seems to be the least, who knows though. I got much more research to do

here is my quiz result though

Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"

Pagan/Occultist
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law. Spending your entire life searching various forms of philosophy and religion, you choose to observe everything and believe little. You're personality is one of truth seeking, nature respecting and god/goddess accepting. Lastly, you don't judge anyone, but if annoyed, you will exact some form of revenge. You do believe in the Three-Fold Law.

Only occasionaly will I post quiz's , but not all the time.

Another day, another wierd post

2005-11-15T19:45:00.000-08:00

Today very slow, either this planet is in slow motion or my brain went into hybernation a month ago because I just can't seem to pay attention in class at all recently, quite boring really.

I realize that I bolth love and hate high school at the same time. I hate how some people are so damn judgemental, stupid, and chose to waste there opportunitie and bug every one who is trying to learn, I also hate the facts the cliques exist in the first place, it's so damn stupid how people in some cliques think there so much better then other people because there popular, I got news for them NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK WHAT FUCKING GROUP YOUR IN!!! Theres that but then theres all the cool people you meet in high school, who are just being themselves and trying to get through this hell like you are, so I am as of yet undecided on wether high school is a waste of time or not.

This illistrates a bigger problem in sociaty, how people who belong to a certain group or have money or are hot have more advantages then people who are not. This in my opinion is bullshit, your oportunities should be based on how hard you work or the quality of your work not your social or monatary statues. I hope to be able to change this someday, but who knows or at least I hope someone does because people should'nt have to worry about there statues they should just be themselves, personaly I am sick of fake people.

Moving day is getting sooner and sooner, the anticipation is killing me.
After I move I can go after my permit, then my license. If your thinking why has'nt he got his already he's almost 17, well in oregon( the state where I live) you have to have a parent sign for your permit, and my mom never would, she said I was'nt responsible even thought I kept my GPA over 3.3 and kept my room clean and stayed out of trouble. This is one of the main reasons why i'm moving, that and the fact that in the last three or five years we have'nt gotten along well.

The thing with me and my mom is that I think we both hate each others guts, we both are motivated differently and niether of us has really ever been able to understand the other. I am motivated by the fact that I don't want to become some dumbass idiot and that I want to contribute something major to the world during my life time, and she just wants to stay afloat and not go into dept. We both think on different levels.

I guess this drive has also hurt me in a way because whenever I like a girl I can't ever seem to ask her out because I guess I think I'm not good enough for her. I need to realize that I am worth something and that even though most of my family has little to no faith in me I should have faith in my self.

More later.

Blah......(sigh)

2005-11-14T05:44:00.000-08:00

Another week gone, This week should prove to be somewhat interesting. I get to move most of my stuff on thursday and then I move next week, also I have a friends birthday to go to (yay) .

More later

Wierd!!

2005-11-12T21:47:00.000-08:00

Right after I finished my last post and ate something, I had a wierd feeling just sneak up on me, it felt like I had an out of body experience or something, it was like I was controling my body yet not all at the same time, almost like when you take strong pain medication and feel like a damn zombie( no I do not do drugs this was genuine and I have no clue why it happened).

Something like that happened to me a few months ago also and it was just as wierd, I wonder what they are?

The resident chimp in office( President bush) was running his mouth again about how his critics were wrong to critisize him, and that it is sending the wrong message to the troops, well besides that being a crouqe shit and another lie it's also an insult to are troops, they should know the truth even if it's not pretty, they deserve it, also they should know that over 2000 of them have died because Bush decided to go on a foolish campaign for oil and decided to use american lives to get it. I hope that the troops come home safe though even though I don't agree with there mission.

I say jail the chimp for life on a charge of genocide(Iraqi civilians, over 100,000 dead) , treason, and mass fraud on a global level, but weather that will ever happens is doubtfull at best . ( dare to dream though)

One more issue for today, Pat Robertson running his mouth off agian, this time saying that god would not help the people of Dover because they voted him out. First to correct anyone who just herd what robertson( old coot) said. Here is a link to the story.

Robertson proves once again that he is a dumb coot with his off the wall comments here is a link to that story.

He says that god will not help them, first I have to ask how does he know what he claims to know. I personaly think he's pushing a neo-conservative agenda, and think that he is using relegion, which historicaly has proved a very stupid move( the crusades, the iran-iraq war, the current israili palestien conflict and many more events) and he will eventualy have to face the mass', I don't think hes going to like the result. He does'nt think before he speaks and thus he sounds like an ass-a-saurous( read flaming jack-ass) , when will he learn.

The first practice

2005-11-12T13:21:00.000-08:00

Today was my first day going to dragon boat conditioning( yes, I know you paddle a boat with a bunch of other people, but if you've ever tried you'd understand why it requires conditioning).

I get there around 7:50 this morning and find three other people from the team there and end up hanging out with them until around 9 this morning when we all left because we were bored waiting for the team to arrive, which they never did, not even the coach or captains,( maybe next satuday will be more eventful who knows).

On a lighter note my birthday is coming up and I get to move out of my moms house soon(yesss!), I also might get an I-pod, but I never know with my parents.

More later.

boredom and annoyences

2005-11-11T09:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, was boring, I went to my doctors to get my ankle rechecked because I sprained it a month ago and find out that he could have just told me the info over the phone, what a waist of time.
In the next day or two I am adding a few new feature to my blog.

Yesterday I was listening to the radio show the playhouse and herd this moron threatening to sue the shows host(PK) for her daughter getting pregnant by a 40 year old man, when the PK had'nt even met the daughter and had said nothing to her, he just made some generalized comment about how after 18 it does'nt matter what age the person is that you have sex with. Some mothers(shame). This mom(beth) seriously needs to consider taking responsiblility for her lack of parenting, or she should consider that her daughter made the choice and her daughter has to live with the consiquences.

Know some people might be asking why I brought that up, well one of the most annoying things in the world to me is when people act or run there mouths without thinking, So many bad things can be prevented if people could just take a second to consider what there saying or about to do and to consider if they are right or not, then speak or act accordingly.

It's so damn annoying, put know I think I understand the saying (it's only funny until somebody gets hurt, then it hillarious) when applied to dumbass'.

More later.

the sad wednesday

2005-11-10T07:23:00.000-08:00

For anyone actually reading this sorry about the glitchs, the new template has some error in it that I need to fix, and I will fix it as soon as I find it, either that or change the template.

Yesterday was fairly boring, went through the motions, took a few tests, went home. More of the usual. Except something that happened right after 7th period. A friend of mine who is normally extremely upbeat and happy seemed to be really sad at the end of school, When I ask her what was troubling her she just gave me a vague answer and walked off. I hope it’s not serious but I’ll find out on Monday or at least try and when I find out I’ll see if I can help her with it.

I’m starting Dragon boat conditioning on Saturday, I wonder how that’s going to go. Sigh… . More later when I can think of it

The riots in France are kind of funny in a diabolic sense because there just getting further and further from there objective, plus those kids that died in the electrocution chose to run into that power plant, the police didn’t shot or kill them. So the rioting is essentially frivolous and that man who died was murdered because some people acted without thinking. Sad how often bad things happen because people weren’t thinking, if only, if only.

Current mood: bored, annoyed

Currently listening to: My chemical, romance, slayer, and switchfoot

the odd dream

2005-11-09T03:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night I had an odd dream(read profile to understand my definition/ what is odd to me), for me anyways and it’s not odd for the obvious reasons either. I had a dream about this one girl who I know named Alison and I was kissing her and suddenly I fell down what seemed to be a giant hole that I hadn’t even seen before.

Then I woke up extremely pissed off ann I couldn’t figure out what the hell dream meant the whole damn day, which I think caused me to bomb a science test I had after school( The test was a retake of sorts, A lot of people in the science class I take bombed a test or two and the teacher for some unknown reason decided to give everyone who wanted one a quarter final and she said she replace are lowest quiz grade with that one).

Weird If you ask me I think the dream means that I need to pick up my damn pace and start having some damn courage.

I don’t quite understand why I find it so hard to ask this girl that I like out, I’m not really that shy around her know that I think about it. It could be the anxiety associated with the whole thing, or the fact that I don’t have a job yet( I’ve been looking for months and Have only gotten about 6 or 7 interviews, each of which have either said they don’t have shifts for the hours that I am available at or I’m not old enough( No that doesn’t make sense and it probably could be prevented if the morons looked at the damn application instead of waiting tell I arrive at the interview to shoot me down.)) or the fact that I can’t drive yet and I’m 16, either one I guess, but I’ll find out sooner or later(hopefully sooner so I can fix the damn problem before it really becomes a problem).

Also my damn cd player was stolen yesterday and it had a cd that did’nt belong to be in it so I have to replace it and also it had a pair of rechargeable batteries in it( losing those sucks, it’s not like I’m cheap or anything it’s just I hate it when some asshole thinks they have the right to steal someone’s things, plus they were gifts from a family member for my 16th birthday about a year ago.

<Start Rant> On the topic of theft and stealing and to a more broader sense gangs in general. It’s so damn stupid, I mean what the hell is the point of this bull shit, People hurting other people I swear it’s so damn childish(sarcasm)Oh the world hurt me I’m so broken, I’m a dumb ass gangster who thinks I’m hard and have a right to steal peoples shit and kill then, oh pity me, pity me.(sarcasm). Well I got news for those morons NO ONE PITYS YOU IDIOTS. So you had hard lives, a lot of people do but many of them still find a way to be make a good (or in some cases great) living with out having to shoot people daily or deal drugs or be a dumbass pimp.</end rant>. No offense to anyone who is actually trying to get out, I’ve heard stories about how hard it is and I wish everyone trying to get clean good luck.

That was my rant for the day I will might add more when I feel like it or whenever some idiot tickes me off, who knows. That’s all for know, more later(maybe)

tuesday, november.8, 2005

2005-11-08T05:07:00.000-08:00

I finished that test I was talking about yesterday faster then I thought I would, maybe I’ll actually get a good grade on it who knows.

I’m moving in two weeks “yes”, Finaly I’ll be out of my damn moms house.( I’m 16 and I hate my mom, I’ll just say for know that her and I don’t get along to well at all and the fact that she’s a damn spaz could be the problem also.).

Being shy sucks ass, There’s this girl at my school who I like and every time I try to approach her I end up not being able to ask her out, it’s annoying as hell, maybe that’ll change soon I don’t know, I probably should talk to some one about it though?

That new starin of the flu (the bird flu) I wonder if or when it will hit US shores, I hope it won’t, but if it does I hope they contain it fast otherwise I don’t even want to think about the casualty numbers. If it’s a hoak though I hope who ever started it gets the shit beat out of them.

First post

2005-11-07T08:31:00.000-08:00

I am setting here board out of my damn mind in communications class( I go to a school in oregon that offers a bunch of different technecal class's, and wasn't thinking when I chose this one.). I think I'll finish a drawing I'm working on, maybe not who knows.

I am new to Manga drawing, so it's annoying learning to draw from books that tell you absoulutly nothing about detail and how to finish figure. sigh............

Another boring monday ahead and I have a damn chemistry test today. I'm hoping to get above a C, but who knows./