Another day, another wierd post
Today very slow, either this planet is in slow motion or my brain went into hybernation a month ago because I just can't seem to pay attention in class at all recently, quite boring really.
I realize that I bolth love and hate high school at the same time. I hate how some people are so damn judgemental, stupid, and chose to waste there opportunitie and bug every one who is trying to learn, I also hate the facts the cliques exist in the first place, it's so damn stupid how people in some cliques think there so much better then other people because there popular, I got news for them NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK WHAT FUCKING GROUP YOUR IN!!! Theres that but then theres all the cool people you meet in high school, who are just being themselves and trying to get through this hell like you are, so I am as of yet undecided on wether high school is a waste of time or not.
This illistrates a bigger problem in sociaty, how people who belong to a certain group or have money or are hot have more advantages then people who are not. This in my opinion is bullshit, your oportunities should be based on how hard you work or the quality of your work not your social or monatary statues. I hope to be able to change this someday, but who knows or at least I hope someone does because people should'nt have to worry about there statues they should just be themselves, personaly I am sick of fake people.
Moving day is getting sooner and sooner, the anticipation is killing me.
After I move I can go after my permit, then my license. If your thinking why has'nt he got his already he's almost 17, well in oregon( the state where I live) you have to have a parent sign for your permit, and my mom never would, she said I was'nt responsible even thought I kept my GPA over 3.3 and kept my room clean and stayed out of trouble. This is one of the main reasons why i'm moving, that and the fact that in the last three or five years we have'nt gotten along well.
The thing with me and my mom is that I think we both hate each others guts, we both are motivated differently and niether of us has really ever been able to understand the other. I am motivated by the fact that I don't want to become some dumbass idiot and that I want to contribute something major to the world during my life time, and she just wants to stay afloat and not go into dept. We both think on different levels.
I guess this drive has also hurt me in a way because whenever I like a girl I can't ever seem to ask her out because I guess I think I'm not good enough for her. I need to realize that I am worth something and that even though most of my family has little to no faith in me I should have faith in my self.
More later.
I realize that I bolth love and hate high school at the same time. I hate how some people are so damn judgemental, stupid, and chose to waste there opportunitie and bug every one who is trying to learn, I also hate the facts the cliques exist in the first place, it's so damn stupid how people in some cliques think there so much better then other people because there popular, I got news for them NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK WHAT FUCKING GROUP YOUR IN!!! Theres that but then theres all the cool people you meet in high school, who are just being themselves and trying to get through this hell like you are, so I am as of yet undecided on wether high school is a waste of time or not.
This illistrates a bigger problem in sociaty, how people who belong to a certain group or have money or are hot have more advantages then people who are not. This in my opinion is bullshit, your oportunities should be based on how hard you work or the quality of your work not your social or monatary statues. I hope to be able to change this someday, but who knows or at least I hope someone does because people should'nt have to worry about there statues they should just be themselves, personaly I am sick of fake people.
Moving day is getting sooner and sooner, the anticipation is killing me.
After I move I can go after my permit, then my license. If your thinking why has'nt he got his already he's almost 17, well in oregon( the state where I live) you have to have a parent sign for your permit, and my mom never would, she said I was'nt responsible even thought I kept my GPA over 3.3 and kept my room clean and stayed out of trouble. This is one of the main reasons why i'm moving, that and the fact that in the last three or five years we have'nt gotten along well.
The thing with me and my mom is that I think we both hate each others guts, we both are motivated differently and niether of us has really ever been able to understand the other. I am motivated by the fact that I don't want to become some dumbass idiot and that I want to contribute something major to the world during my life time, and she just wants to stay afloat and not go into dept. We both think on different levels.
I guess this drive has also hurt me in a way because whenever I like a girl I can't ever seem to ask her out because I guess I think I'm not good enough for her. I need to realize that I am worth something and that even though most of my family has little to no faith in me I should have faith in my self.
More later.
posted by Shadow at 7:45 PM
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